Reflection

Dear readers,

It was August 1, six years ago when I moved into my first one bedroom apartment after living in a studio for 14 years. I had a few boxes, old furniture, 100 books, high hopes and big dreams. I was happy. Today is a very sad day. I feel like I am burying an old friend, I’m being forced out. Not because I am a bad tenant I live in a  private house the landlord abruptly announced, ” The house is being rented, I’m moving my family out-of-state you have to go.” It took me a month to get over the shock. Three months later, my boxes are packed, I am leaving with new furniture,  fifty books,  and more shoes and clothes than I had six years ago.

I live In New York City finding an affordable apartment is not easy and that’s saying it nicely. I have arranged to put my tbelongings  in storage. while living with my long time best girl friendand her 22 year old son.

During the six years in my beautiful one bedroom complete with back yard, I’ve met and dated some horrible men, and made poor financial decisions. I’ve lost some weight, gained the weight, lost the weight and gain the weight back. Studied  for one years at Bible school and received my Ministry Licences. Started my first Blog, wrote and published my first Novel, ” The Waiting Game” on amazon, and entered two short shorties in a contest.  December 2016 completed a Novela ” A Different Flavor of Love” so to be out on amazon. I’m  currently revising a Novel I wrote with a college friend to be published next year. I have a second job$$$$$$$$$$$$$  my income is higher than is was six years ago. I auditioned  for the New York City down chorus, nailed it, this my third season with them. Its amazing I am leaving during the same season I moved in six years ago. And  the real big change I cut my locks after having them for 30 years.

I am sad, angry and feel betrayed. I blame myself. I wasn’t paying attention. I wasn’t focused. I was too busy try to be a part of a family that wasn’t mine. I feel ashamed, I’m educated, intelligent,  passionate about living life and trying new things. Oh, and I’m an amazing teacher. At the age of 53, I have to put my belongings in storage and live in someone else space.

Where do I go from here? Forward, step by step, day by day. taking on one task at a time. Bury myself in work and my writings. UNTIL I FIND MY OWN SPACE.

 

WHAT’S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH THIS?

What’s Love Got To Do With This?

“The Great Valentine’s Day Myth” posted Feb 9, 2015 on dragthepen.wordpress.com expressed my idea that V-Day is for suckers due to despairing and frantic lovers hoping  that cupids  arrow will pierce the hearts of their mates and inspire a marriage proposal or help to rekindle the lack of romance in their dead relationships.  Because of that blog post and the comments, “The Great Valentine’s Day Myth” revived a creative voice that had been silent for years.

Fast forward ten months later; my blog  has 953 viewers and counting. I have a video on You Tube “What to do about Haters,” published an academic paper and created my first portfolio. I have completed my memoir “The Waiting Game,” a reminisce about my past relationships, due date mid-march 2016, on amazon.com. Talk about having your cake and eating it to, I am scheduled to appear on the Tate Show filmed in California for a reading from my book, and I am looking forward to my interview on Books and Banter. All of this happened while I kept my feet on the ground and stayed faithful to my one true love teaching.

So what’s next? Glad you asked. Moving forward and launching into the deep, meaning, hiring a graphic designer and going public with my blog.  In 2016, my blog posting will focus on the theme of each month starting with Black History month in Feb, Women’s History month in March and so on until I have completed the year.

I am thankful for all the people who supported me through all my many writing projects. One of my strongest supporters once said to me “I should never wait for people to give me opportunity I must create my own,” Well lauriana as you can see I did.

Carpe Diem

Happy New Year

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tis the Season

Dear readers, Happy Autumn.

I’ve been absent for a moment, while I was away, I missed the connection to my blogging community.

Anyway, I’m back. Life is moving at warp speed starting with the changing of seasons, and preparing for Halloween, Thanksgivings, Christmas, New Years and all the other celebrations in between. With that said, people tend to get caught up in the stress of being busy, cooking, shopping, planning, and making lists, so they don’t forget the list they’ve already made; during this time, other areas of life are neglected. We lose even more sleep, stop exercising or don’t take the  time to breath and press the reset button.

Why?

Because of the desires to live up to the expectations of others while trying to satisfy the requests of family and friends who have become needy.

Remedy.

I’ve decided to put a stop to the syndrome of HOLIDAY INSANTIY. How? I don’t follow the crowd, ( anymore). If I’m not traveling to see my grandchildren in North Carolina, I stay home, clean, decorate (love holiday decorations) cook, and invite people over for a potluck good time, (no gift required policy). The food is set up buffet style (self-service), I use all disposable items (quick clean up), and for the entertainment, there’s a movie in the bedroom, (no food allowed),  tables for games, like dominoes, card games, and the classic game Monopoly. Yes, contrary to what people think they know, adults like playing games.

This is my gift to people, the time to slow down, and to remember what’s outside of those pretty wrapped boxes can be just an enjoyable and relaxing.  Do you understand where I am going with this?

What Say You?

Stay tune… next topic: The life style of the Rich and Famous versus affordable Housing.

WHAT’S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH THIS?

What’s Love Got To Do With This?

“The Great Valentine’s Day Myth” posted Feb 9, 2015 on dragthepen.wordpress.com expressed my idea that V-Day is for suckers due to despairing and frantic lovers hoping  that cupids  arrow will pierce the hearts of their mates and inspire a marriage proposal or help to rekindle the lack of romance in their dead relationships.  Because of that blog post and the comments, “The Great Valentine’s Day Myth” revived a creative voice that had been silent for years.

Fast forward ten months later; my blog  has 953 viewers and counting. I have a video on You Tube “What to do about Haters,” published an academic paper and created my first portfolio. I have completed my memoir “The Waiting Game,” a reminisce about my past relationships, due date mid-march 2016, on amazon.com. Talk about having your cake and eating it to, I am scheduled to appear on the Tate Show filmed in California for a reading from my book, and I am looking forward to my interview on Books and Banter. All of this happened while I kept my feet on the ground and stayed faithful to my one true love teaching.

So what’s next? Glad you asked. Moving forward and launching into the deep, meaning, hiring a graphic designer and going public with my blog.  In 2016, my blog posting will focus on the theme of each month starting with Black History month in Feb, Women’s History month in March and so on until I have completed the year.

I am thankful for all the people who supported me through all my many writing projects. One of my strongest supporters once said to me “I should never wait for people to give me opportunity I must create my own,” Well lauriana as you can see I did.

Carpe Diem

Happy New Year