Healing

Dear readers,

I should have protected her, but I didn’t know she was sacred. When I was a young girl no one told she was the essence of my spirit and the center of my being. No one told me that if I gave her away too soon she would be abused, missed used, hated, battered, passed around, and treated as if she doesn’t have a soul. No one told me that she would cry, hide and begged to be cherished, loved, and protected. No one told me that she would be branded whore, slut, loose, easy, and old maid. I didn’t listen to her when she whispered” lets not do this again.” I pushed her concerns aside for the benefit of pleasure, but the pleasure wasn’t for us. I didn’t hear her when she begged me to stop treating her like stocks on the Wall Street trading floor sold to the highest bider. After all these years of being together I final understood and the moment that I did the emptiness and pain shook me to my core. The years of allowing others to pour into me their brokneness, suffering, pain, bitterness, resentment, and heartbreak, their spirits never left me even when I thought that I started a new. Why? Because no one told me that my womanhood, my maiden head, my innocene, the purest part of me was scared. No one told me to guard her because giving her away to the woves of this world might result in irreversible damage. No one told me that she would rebel, and that I needed to follow her into the battle to wait for the one. The one who would wait for her to mature. To understand that she needed to be loved and that she is a part if a whole. I regret that I abandon her. I was anger at her for not being better for not capturing and keeping those who I considered a soulmate. She understood they weren’t worthy.

Today, after all of the destruction of my past I realized I never forgave myself for not protecting the innocent young girl who give in too soon. Can you ever forgive me?

I write this too all the women who gave in to soon. HEAL.

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Do I have to make a Choice?

 

Dear Readers,

To be a Good girl or Bad girl, this is a question I’ve been asking myself and others. The choice should be easy, being a good girl people automatically assume she will get the guy. On the other hand, those who choose the path of the bad girl, there is a certainty that she will be alone, after all nobody likes a bad girl, right?

The answer to this question depends on what people’s perception of what  being a good or bad girl means.  For instant, lets say a good girl, is intelligent, has a respectable reputation, she is honest, compassionate, easy to like and gets alone well with others. She dresses in a modest but stylish manner and is every mans dream girl to take home to his mother.

On the flip side, the bad girl has a poor reputation, she will lie, con and scam  anyone to get what she wants. She is selfish, not well liked, often  called the “B” word, she dresses like a slut,n and doesn’t care about any man’s mama because she is all about the man. Good girls lack world experience because she saves herself for Mr. Right, so she waits. Bad girls have been around the block so to speak. She thinks that each man she encounters is Mr. Right, until he proves that he is Mr. wrong then she moves on. Good girls date one man at a time. Bad girls go through men like how a family of eight goes through toilet paper, FAST.

Good girls are known to be people pleasers, she wants to be liked by everyone. Bad girls, think only of themselves and they use people to satisfy  their needs; other people’s needs is not their concern. Good girls are polite and have excellent conduct.  Bad girls are rude and they lack class and proper etiquette.

With all this said, in the end I have observed good girls, meet, date and marry men who disrespect them, take their kindness for weakness, and dislike the idea that she has  a higher level of  intelligence than him. In the mean time, bad girls have multiple men pursuing them , they get what they want from men, and  marry men who they can control.

I don’t know which one of these girls I want to be. I do know this, I desire to have a decent, honest compassionate, romantic, faithful, educated ( well read), domestically capable and relationship ready man.

What say you?

 

Do I have to make a Choice? Questions from the Mad Dater

 

 

tp-goodgirlbadgirl-news-webDear Readers,

To be a Good girl or Bad girl, this is a question I’ve been asking myself and others. The choice should be easy, being a good girl people automatically assume she will get the guy. On the other hand, those who choose the path of the bad girl, there is a certainty that she will be alone, after all nobody likes a bad girl, right?

The answer to this question depends on what people’s perception of what  being a good or bad girl means.  For instant, lets say a good girl, is intelligent, has a respectable reputation, she is honest, compassionate, easy to like and gets alone well with others. She dresses in a modest but stylish manner and is every mans dream girl to take home to his mother.

On the flip side, the bad girl has a poor reputation, she will lie, con and scam  anyone to get what she wants. She is selfish, not well liked, often  called the “B” word, she dresses like a slut,n and doesn’t care about any man’s mama because she is all about the man. Good girls lack world experience because she saves herself for Mr. Right, so she waits. Bad girls have been around the block so to speak. She thinks that each man she encounters is Mr. Right, until he proves that he is Mr. wrong then she moves on. Good girls date one man at a time. Bad girls go through men like how a family of eight goes through toilet paper, FAST.

Good girls are known to be people pleasers, she wants to be liked by everyone. Bad girls, think only of themselves and they use people to satisfy  their needs; other people’s needs is not their concern. Good girls are polite and have excellent conduct.  Bad girls are rude and they lack class and proper etiquette.

With all this said, in the end I have observed good girls, meet, date and marry men who disrespect them, take their kindness for weakness, and dislike the idea that she has  a higher level of  intelligence than him. In the mean time, bad girls have multiple men pursuing them , they get what they want from men, and  marry men who they can control.

I don’t know which one of these girls I want to be. I do know this, I desire to have a decent, honest compassionate, romantic, faithful, educated ( well read), domestically capable and relationship ready man.

What say you?

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