Thank you for stopping by dragthepen. I hope you find PEACE.
I did not know to say no to the house date because I was just your booty call
You said I am your one and only, what you meant was that I was the only one for that moment
The gifts you gave me wasn’t made for me they were recycled from what you took back from you EX
When you say you couldn’t see me it wasn’t out of obligation to work or family
You were busy juggling the others in your list of booty calls
The other night you called out her name, you claimed that I am insane because your heart only beats to my flame
The cycle of heartbreak, tears, pain, lies, promises, apologies, late night mystery phone calls are more than I can bare…..
After the depth of darkness I will bath myself in self-love, walk in truth, heal my soul with the bliss of peace and rid my heart of the fake, scheming, and hypocrite of a lover you pretend to be
Today is that day. You know the day you just can’t seem to hold life together. People say push through, but why? Today, I can’t just push through. Sometimes pushing through causes more harm than good. Today, is the day that I need to step back and work through this mist of fog.
I have been digging in and plowing through for months. Day by day, pushing down the emotional waves that threaten to overwhelm me, holding back tears, smiling, laughing, when I really want to scream out and crawl in a corner and be left alone. Having private conversations with that voice in my head, whispering ” I am okay”. Today, I am not ok. I think about the thousands of people who go through life faking the funk lying to themselves about being “ok”, afraid of having a break down because people will judged them for being weak. Shame on us for creating a society where its not good to admit that ” I am not okay”.
Today, is my day to feel the emotional waves and let them do what they do. Today, is the day for the tears to flow. Today, is the day for me to admit to the voice in my head that I am exhausted, depressed, and that I feel the pain of loneliness and isolation from friends and family. Today, I will lay in bed with the breakfast, while organzing my personal projects. I will quite my mind by reading and siping a glass of merlot. Awww the pleasures of life are short lived. I am counting the days until the month of June ends, and looking forward to my vacation to California. In the meantime, at the close of this day I will take a warm bubble bath, indulging in a mani- pedi, burn my favorite candle ( vanilla) and prepare my mind and body to face the next day.
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